Jessica Kim
Grades 9-10 Winner
This Side, Reimagined
“Her philosophy is carpe diem for herself and laissez faire for others.”
- F. Scott Fitzgerald, This Side of Paradise
After the war, there are always promises to begin again.
As if I can undo tragedy with a finger, clots of blood
spilling death into slogans. Like the other men, I am
obsessed with capitalism.
The men learn to drink alcohol
like lifelines. I do too, but lose all of my investments
to a country in hunger. Inheritance no longer has a value. They tell me
that girls only look for
two things: beauty and wealth.
I realize it’s true. In town, the rose bushes litter the window sills,
so much so that I mistake this story for a happy ending.
Remember each failed romantic affair, how she found another
man who was wealthier
than you were. Instead, I learn
how to fake love as if a currency.
All that my country
can teach me is laissez faire: greed posing as freedom.
I am homeless and disillusioned but this time, I know where
the story needs to go.
To dismantle the system
of wealth, the only way to win back the woman. Unlike
the other men, I understand myself better when desperate.